Across Generations

The Shoes Outside the Chapel · Chapter 2 of 6

Chapter 2

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“Daniel!”

Taryn's voice echoed through the chapel.

Her father grabbed her arm as she moved toward me.

“You cannot be serious.”

“I've never been more serious.”

“Over something a ten-year-old misunderstood?”

Ellie flinched.

I felt her hand tighten around mine.

“Don't.”

Taryn stared at me.

“Don't what?”

“Don't make her the problem.”

“I didn't.”

“You just did.”

Guests were whispering now.

My mother stood from the second row.

She took one look at Ellie and came toward us.

“Where were you, honey?”

Ellie didn't answer.

Mom looked at me.

“Daniel?”

“Take Ellie outside for me.”

Ellie's grip tightened.

“No.”

I looked down.

“I don't want to go.”

“You're not in trouble.”

“I know.”

“Then what's wrong?”

She glanced at Taryn.

“If I leave, she'll tell you I lied.”

The room went silent again.

Taryn stared at her.

“That is enough.”

“No,” I said. “It isn't.”

My mother moved beside Ellie.

Taryn's father stepped forward.

“Daniel, everyone is emotional. Canceling a wedding in front of a hundred and fifty people based on a child's interpretation is—”

“Her name is Ellie.”

“I know her name.”

“Then use it.”

Nathan appeared beside me.

He had known me since college and knew when not to interfere.

“Want me to clear the chapel?” he asked.

Taryn stared at him.

“Nobody is clearing anything!”

“Taryn,” her father warned.

She ripped the veil from her hair.

“This is insane!”

Maybe she expected me to react to her tears.

Two hours earlier, I would have.

Now I kept seeing Ellie's bare feet.

“I want one answer,” I said.

Taryn folded her arms.

“What?”

“Did you tell Ellie to stay outside until the ceremony ended?”

Silence.

“Answer me.”

“I told her we needed space.”

“Behind the chapel?”

“She was having an attitude.”

I looked down at Ellie.

“What attitude?”

“She kept asking when she was supposed to line up.”

I stared at Taryn.

“She was the flower girl.”

“I know!”

“Then why wouldn't she ask?”

“Because everything doesn't have to revolve around her!”

Several people gasped.

Taryn realized too late what she had said.

She lowered her voice.

“That's not what I meant.”

“I think it's exactly what you meant.”

She stepped closer.

“You've spoiled her since Rebecca died.”

The mention of my late wife's name changed something in the room.

My mother went rigid.

Ellie looked down.

I said quietly, “Careful.”

Taryn ignored the warning.

“You compensate for losing Rebecca by making Ellie the center of every decision.”

“She is my child.”

“And I'm supposed to be your wife!”

“Supposed to be.”

Her face hardened.

“Fine. You want the truth? I was trying to establish boundaries.”

“By telling her our future child would be our ‘real baby’?”

“I never used it like that.”

“How did you use it?”

Taryn hesitated.

I waited.

Finally she said, “I told her that someday we might have a baby together and that would create a different kind of family.”

My mother made a sound of disbelief.

Taryn turned toward her.

“Please don't interfere.”

Mom's voice was quiet.

“I just found my granddaughter sitting outside barefoot on her father's wedding day.”

“You've always encouraged her dependence.”

I stepped forward.

“Enough.”

Taryn looked back at me.

“No, Daniel. Maybe we finally need to say this. Ellie is ten. She isn't four. She doesn't need to be attached to you every second.”

“Attached?”

“She calls you when she's at sleepovers. She interrupts our conversations. She comes downstairs when she has nightmares. She—”

“She's ten.”

“Exactly! Ten!”

As if ten were thirty.

As if childhood had an expiration date Taryn had privately decided Ellie had reached.

I remembered something then.

Two months earlier, Ellie had come downstairs at midnight after dreaming about her mother.

Taryn had been irritated the next morning.

I had thought she was tired.

Now I wondered what happened after I left for work.

“How many times have you told her she's too dependent on me?”

Taryn looked away.

That was enough.

I turned to Nathan.

“Get everyone out.”

Taryn's mouth fell open.

“You can't do this.”

“I just did.”

“You're throwing away two years!”

“No. I'm preventing the next twenty.”

Her father approached me.

“Think carefully. The venue alone cost—”

“I'll handle whatever I legally owe.”

“This isn't about money.”

“Then don't bring up money.”

Guests began filing out.

Some stared.

Some pretended not to.

Others came to squeeze my shoulder or hug my mother.

I didn't care what any of them thought.

Then Taryn said something that made me turn around.

“She planned this.”

Ellie froze.

I stared at Taryn.

“What?”

“She didn't want us to get married.”

Ellie whispered, “That's not true.”

“She has been jealous since you proposed.”

“Taryn.”

“She knew exactly what would happen if she made me look like some evil stepmother.”

Ellie began crying.

Not loudly.

That made it worse.

“You told me he'd choose you,” she whispered.

Taryn went pale.

I crouched beside Ellie.

“What did you say?”

Ellie wiped her face.

“She said if I made you choose between us, you'd choose her because grown-ups choose their spouses.”

I slowly stood.

Taryn said, “I was explaining marriage.”

“No.”

I looked at the woman in the wedding dress.

“You were testing my daughter.”

Taryn shook her head.

“You were teaching her that love was a competition.”

“I was trying to help her adjust.”

“You told a child that her father would choose you over her.”

“She needs to understand that a marriage has priorities.”

“And now you understand mine.”

Taryn stared at me.

For once, she had nothing to say.

I turned away.

Ellie and I left through the same doors we had entered.

Outside, the afternoon sun had broken through the clouds.

I loosened my tie.

Ellie walked silently beside me.

Then she asked, “Dad?”

“Yeah?”

“Are you mad at me?”

I stopped.

I knelt directly in front of her.

“No.”

“But the wedding cost a lot.”

“I don't care.”

“Everybody came.”

“I don't care.”

“Taryn's going to hate me.”

“That is not your responsibility.”

Her chin trembled.

“Did I ruin your wedding?”

I put both hands gently around hers.

“No, sweetheart.”

“Then who did?”

I looked back at the chapel.

“Taryn made choices. I made mine.”

I pulled her into my arms.

“You told me the truth.”

She buried her face against my shoulder.

For the first time that day, my daughter sobbed.

And as I held her, I realized something worse than what had happened behind the chapel.

This hadn't started that morning.

The wedding had only exposed it.

If I wanted to understand how badly I had failed to notice what was happening in my own home, I would have to learn everything Ellie had been too afraid to tell me.

And that night, I did.

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